Monthly Archives: April 2010

Random Thought!

One day when my group and I were taking a class at Sarah and Shane’s, Sarah showed us an interesting view of Damascus. Before we started the class she took us to a roof of one of the buildings. The view was amazing. It’s indescribable. From that roof you can see Damascus. All Damascus: parks, mosques, churches, streets, clubs, everything. I still remember the things we were talking about. we were talking about how unpredictable Damascus weather was, especially where Sarah and Shane lived – uphill. It was great time.

Me, Sarah & Shane together in Nabak, Syria

She had created this sort of bridge that no other teacher I had had done before. She was more than a teacher, more than a friend. I used to talk to her about virtually anything concerns me, whether class material, things we discuss in class, or generally life issues… I miss our talks; I miss you, Sarah!

I had you in my mind today during the vigil. It might sound absurd but I really wanted you and Shane sitting with me (I know, we will change the poster to something else, don’t worry) today. I know where you are now is kind of has warm weather, at BU beach today though it was great as the cool breeze started to get higher. After you get home, spend sometime with your family, you should definitely get here and sit at BU beach!

I will take you there.. As you read this! Someday, soon…

Let’s smoke – “Gotta live like we’re dying” !!??

I quit smoking last Tuesday and I feel great about it. All the credit goes to my co-workers at Merck Serono, friends and myself (of course).

Blogs are great! Wait a second; it’s about me quitting smoking, right? Yes, don’t worry we’re getting there. I have a friend that writes poetically. She got me totally enchanted to her writing the moment I read her first Arabic writing (oh so she writes in Arabic! Yes and she writes in English too). It was great! Anyway, that’s not what I’m discussing here. Let’s get to it!

So the other day, while I was waiting for my coach to take me to Rockland, I was checking my facebook (don’t we all?) and I noticed that my friend had a new posting. Her opening was so interesting that she had me read her whole piece – it wasn’t a happy writing of you’re wondering!  The first line was: “A lot of people believe in that quote; “Gotta live like we’re dying.””

I stopped at that line for a moment as my life flashed before my eyes! As I was recalling memories I said to myself “this is beautiful, but what the heck, who cares after all, it’s true: we gotta live like we’re dying.” But wait a minute, that’s not so true! I realized that when I quit smoking. Absurd. I know. But this is how it is!

Every cigarette I smoked I justify it by the quote. But since I quit smoking (I love how it sounds) I realized that I didn’t get the quote quite well! If I want to live like I’m dying then what kind of life a one would live? You’re dying tomorrow anyways, why bother to bust your ass working, studying, doing good deeds, making friends, reading, thinking, or watching over your health? I’m dying so I’m not doing this and I’m not doing that! We all need to step back a moment and think – wait a second – why I’m I doing this? So yes, that’s what I realized. I was dying. I was killing myself, smoking.

You may ask why I quit; you still young; you can quit later on in life; lots of stress and pressure, have a smoke dude! Believe it or not I have heard all of that.

What really made me quit smoking was the support I’ve been receiving from my co-workers at EMD Serono. Those people are indescribable. They were so determined to have me quit smoking. They did great job!

I will later talk about the story of how I quit! (a week ago)…

Later folks…